Tuesday, 21 April 2015
Achievement unlocked! I hit a significant milestone this morning, weighing in at 184.9 pounds, which: i) brings me within 20 pounds of my goal; ii) makes me a middleweight for the first time in 15 years (and potentially a "Rumbleweight" welter, depending on how much Johnson lets himself go). Even more significant, my weigh in this morning marks the successful end of a 15 month fight to lose the weight gained from not one but two major backslides, one when I was job hunting and hating my work and one at Christmas last year when I gave myself permission to eat All The Food (although I must tell you, the Nerd's sugar cookies are delicious).
All in all I put on - and lost - and regained - and relost 51.3 pounds over these 15 months. But now for the first time in 15 months I am seeing a weight on the scale that is lower than before. This morning, I am finally back to losing weight rather than relosing weight I had only recently lost . I am breaking new weight loss records, in other words.
This is less likely to happen now for a few reasons. First, my eating habits have seriously evolved over the past 3 years since I have begun working on this lifestyle change. I understand portion control, I focus on drinking enough water in a day, and I do not binge eat as long or as frequently as I used to. I also eat more fruit and vegetables and much less cheese and carbs than I used to. That's not to say that I don't love cheese and carbs, but I just don't make them the focus of every course of every meal like I used to.
Second, my exercise habits have dramatically changed. I enjoy the time on the elliptical in the morning, and regular exercise is now just a normal part of my day, rather than a tedious chore to be endured. I like staying active, and I enjoy being able to walk around the city with the Nerd.
Third, and most importantly, I have a supportive helpmate in the Nerd who keeps cooking us delicious, healthy meals and doesn't try and undermine me by bringing irresistible treats into the house. I do not exaggerate when I say that I could not have achieved this without his support and encouragement.
Finally, I am gradually adopting a more zen-like approach to weight loss. I understand that some months my body simply chooses to retain all the water and I will put on weight for no apparent reason. And some months I will crave snacks more than others. No matter, though - - I understand at a very basic level now that putting on a pound or two - or five or ten - is not the end of the world just as long as I get my head back into my program and focus on eating well and exercising regularly.
Case in point was my recent trip to the Mothership in Atlanta. I enjoyed many meals out and sampled a variety of wonderful southern cooking including ribs, pimento cheese, fried chicken and collard greens and banana pudding. I ate wayyyyy over my normal calories during that trip and came back to Toronto about 8 pounds higher than when I had left. Rather than getting despondent however, I knew that much of this would be sodium-induced water weight that would come off quickly once I got back into my routine. And the weight that did not come off quickly would come off slowly, but it would still come off.
The first time I lost a significant amount of weight (back in 2000) I did not have this certainty. Each pound was a struggle, and when my weight started creeping up again once I resumed my poor eating habits and stopped exercising (i.e. almost immediately), it felt like I could never take the weight off again. The task felt overwhelming, and therefore it quickly became overwhelming. I can tell you from brutal - and repeated - experience that it is much easier to lose 5 or even 10 pounds than it is to lose 50 or 100 pounds.
So this morning I weighed 184.9 pounds. 19.9 pounds to go until I reach my goal weight. I expect than my target weight zone will end up being 165 pounds +/- 5 pounds, and as long as I keep within this range, all will be well. We'll see how it goes.
Onward and downward!