Wednesday, 31 July 2013
Achievement unlocked - it's normal stores for me (aka size 14 at last!)
This month I lost another 3 inches, going down half an inch on my bust, an inch and a half off my waist and another inch on my hips. Biceps, calves and thighs remained the same this month.
I remember the first time I had to shop in a plus-size specialty store. It was heartbreaking. The staff were very friendly and helpful, and the clothes were actually quite nice, but it felt terrible to know that I could no longer shop in the same stores as my friends. When we went to Banana Republic or Club Monaco or the Gap I knew that there would be no point in browsing, because those stores did not stock plus sizes - - I knew there was nothing in store for me. If my normal friends complimented my outfits and asked where I got them, I was ashamed to tell them, because they would never shop in a plus size store. I would pretend that I had forgotten where I got the outfit, which as we all know, is impossible. Women generally know the provenance of every single item in their closet - - I know I do, and I refer to things by their source (e.g. my "Lands End twinset" or my "Talbots jacket"). It is only the clothes in my archive for which I can no longer remember the source, but they are the exception (since it has been more than a decade since I last wore these clothes, and a lot has happened since then).
Even more humiliating was receiving gifts from friends or family that were woefully undersized. It was nice that my friends and family thought I was much smaller than I actually was, but it made me feel even more ashamed to know how big I had let myself get. I remember one year my mother gave me a beautiful cashmere sweater from Holt Renfrew in XL. At the time I was 2X, creeping up on 3X, and the sweater did not even come close to fitting me. It was the largest sweater they had, though, and it was a lovely gesture -- I did not have the heart to tell her that there was no chance that I would ever wear the sweater. I tried it on when I got home, and looked like a soft and luxurious sausage. It was not a good look. Nor can I wear it now - - it's too large (!).
So another month is in the books, and I am still seeing progress on both weight loss and inches lost. I am not in my final form yet, although it is getting close - - only around 4 months left to reach my goal! Put that way, and it sounds terrifyingly close.
For the record, I still don't recommend getting people clothing as gifts - - get the size too small, and you make the recipient feel fat, and get the size too big, and you are saying that you think they are fat. And god forbid it does not fit. It's just not worth the bother - - that's why my sister gets so many purses and wallets from me as presents - - fine leather goods are always the right size!